With Me Again
In April 2004 my husband and I traveled to Chile to visit our son Luke who was living in Santiago. This trip was planned to be either respite or recovery for us as my Mother was dying of cancer. We had spent many months caring for this exceptional woman who was herself the musical daughter of Vaudeville performers. We were weary with the day in day out care, but honored to go the distance with her. On April 10, 2004, she passed on and after her life was joyously celebrated, we went on our next adventure. We knew she would want us to keep exploring. The starkness and beauty of Chile was breathtaking. We drove up the entire coast to the Atacama desert. I was trying desperately to heal, but my heart felt so hollow and lonely. The solitude and the rhythm of the car brought me back to my musical roots. I had not written an original tune in many years, but suddenly felt this melody engulf me and my mother\'s energy filling me up with the need to sing. We rotated driving, two hours on, four hours off, and once my driving turn was over I flew into the back seat of our rental car looking for a piece of paper. When I drove, I felt my mom with me again. \'Every road that I know travel, brings me back to thoughts of you\'. I quickly wrote the words on a scrap piece of paper and then began to \'make\' manuscript paper so I could pen the melody. I was so sure this song was right. My Mom and I had an incredibly intense relationship, bound deeply in music, and to this day, I believe she \'communicates\' with me. So she lives on in my song. Some may not believe in the after life spirit. That\'s cool. I say, whatever gives you comfort. If Mom wants to keep talking to me and inspiring me, after all these years of telling me to listen, I plan to do just that. There\'s a reason we have two ears and one mouth. So I first sang this tune at my spring recital; then I recorded it accompanying myself on the piano; then Winston Maccow wrote the bridge; then my daughter Isabeau Miller wrote the words to the bridge....a perfect candidate since she is the Granddaughter who attends Berklee College of Music as a Performance Major. So technically, three generations inspired this song. Then Winston invited Russ Hoffman to add \'pads\' to the tune; then Peter Komtrinas mixed it beautifully. It is the title of my first CD. It is the gift my Mom always wanted me to share. With the help of many souls, I\'m glad you are \'with me again\'. Love, Tedi.